Thursday, March 01, 2007
my feet is getting heavier .i couldnt speak. words trapped in my thr0at.it's not dat i don wan tell eu h0w i feel & wad i'm thinking of.i wanted to share it with u too.but i cant get over me ;i'm not use to saeing things from e bottom of part of me.i wanted to speak but voices cantbe heard.i'm out of voice.u said u feel hard to communicate with mesumtymes.perhps is dat i don speak e bottom of my heart ; to my problems. u get irritated for e answer i gave.i don have enough courage to speak e things dat kept deep dwn inside me.u said not to worry to tell eu everything.but i scare,scare get irritated by u.cus nw's jus e starting point.who noes eu might get irritated. i'm afraid ; afraid to give eu 1oo% . e thinking of mine haven change yet, which is dat i'm afraid dat whn e moment i give 1oo% things bad will happen,it would lead us apart.mayb give me sumtymes.tyme get rid of e thinking.but it wont get rid of e voices dat trapped.
manythings keep flashing n flashing thru my mind. i feel i'm going crazy soon.bed tyme heard paper flipping , it jus annoy me. makes me think more irritating stuff.
everyone seems pretend to be themselve. putting a mask.trying to be e usual self. am i correct ? or i'm reading to0 much agnn ? perhaps .
i don seems to be e crazy me as i used to be anymore.
