SMACK [ !! ]
BLEED non-stop
STAY AWAE FROM ME !
I AM TRYING MYBEST
TO LET IT HEAL .
BUT IT get WOUNDED.
I DONnoe how it bleed ;
i wanted to gibbe him
all mybless wibb dat gurl.
but somehow ; ii cant .
am i selfish ? or .. ?
I'M nort MYSELF;
why ? .. wad should i
do ? face it or pretend .?
overall ; wad's e problem
i still donoe . how should
i do ?
e wound seems nort
closing up ; there`s a
hole . a hole in my heart.
e missing hole is i dare
nort anyhow place my
heart to someone fully.
gross !.
eye donnoe wad happen.
oh my. . c thing like
got a layer thing blockin
-.- '' wad e ?? went to
movie todae . kakas ;
dragon tiger gate .
lols they fighting nice
e story okok lah. hahas
i wish to be single ;
don wan get into
relationship yet .
crushing n lurbb
is two different things
duibuqii.
oh gross ;
i dreamt of him.
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in my dream.
everything are
so true . i cant
believe i'm dreamin
too .
i donnoe why.
i feel lost.
my heart ache;
i habb enough ler.
i don wan to carry
on this wae.
falling asleep ;
nvr wanted to wake.
jus keeping sleepin
n dreaming . nvr
wanted to noe e ugly
side of e world .
- wuyaa -.
woohoos ! my maths pass.
13/15 wahahas .
geo oso pass X) 9/15
- wuyaa -.
i wont bug eu ler.
i noe i'm annoying.
there's no another
tyme ler.
WOOHOOs !!
todae went bck to smb pri.
with lijun at bout 12 like dat ?
erm ; quite fun ? haas.
gort a group of guys berri
hao kan X) lols
den everything is berri exciting.
i saw MARMIIE * woops*
i mean humaira . haas.
she's still same . haas.
ii n lijun go explore.
den we went to e canteen.
guess wad we saw ?
CANDY FLOSS !!
omggs . haas berri nice lehs
so sweet sehh !! woohoos .
after dat lijun gotta go meet
her cousin . ii den go home.
at 2 plus like dat ii meet eva along
wibb my sister . den ying go with her
friend . ii gibb her my phone . i with
eva go explore . haas . we went up n dwn.
we even went inside e boii toilet !
haas ; boii toilet is bigger den gurls.
haas we took photo -.-''
berri cute lo . haas.
after dat me n her at 3plus go kpt
eat . afterwards she n i along with
yingying we go playground n
called weiting to come toos.
haas . we play ice n water .
ii no energy to run siaa.
eva run like siaochabo . .
after playing we went to
marmar shop buy plain water to
wash hand ; buy ice cream ; buy
titbits n drinks ! haas n sit at
e car park there . . erms should
be outside e carpark ? haas
there's a shutter there .
blk306 X) we took lots lots of pic.
100 ++ going to 200 . haas.
afterplaying is bout 7+ my korr
wan eat ; so we go . me n weiting
run towards e kpt . haas.
they came my hus ton.
haas . sae hao wan ton but all slpp
ler . donnoe leh , ii like berri tired .
haas .. before slpp we play n play .
draw n draw . haas .
n den like dat lo .. go slpp
haas . .
wake up at 11 like dat
we go dwn eat breakfast . .
after eat hao return home .
not long later they went their home
ler . haas . our dae end like dat.
if i can control my life
tyme ; i would spent it
in my [ f airyw 0rl d ]
n holding wishes in
my hand ..s
simple life would do.
i still rmb wad i wrote
in my art.
[ looking into e mirror ;
e person i sees inside
is another me living in e
other world .
a world without pain,
without problem.
e person i would choose
to believe is e other me
living inside e mirror .
she`s e one would hear
me out whhn i dwn ;
she`s e one would cry
along wibb me whhn i'm
sad . ]
wahaas . chim ? lols seems
like siao chabo to me. haas.
*donno how spell his name*
FREAK EU. SHIT EU .
RUIN MY DAE . berri wad
siaa eu . sprey water at
michelle till all wet. FREAKER
like dat ok liao . den at english
class shoot teacher like no
need money like dat agnn .
AND use eur SMELLY SHIRT
to hit my table till my PEN FLY
EU CHICKEN NO HAIR.
hate pp throw my PEN .
STILL QUARREL WIBB ME .
FREAKY BOII .
todae maths test ;
nort bad ? donnoe will
pass mahs ? ii quite happy
for my chem / phy. ii get
8/2o . . chem 6/15 .
jus abit abit den pass ler.
so i must work hard work hard.
i don wan retain . promise
yifan kor ler . hahas n part
of it is myself . wahahas .
my geo dono will pass mah ?
ii think half half . hahas.
english compo test cuming .
on mondae ?forgoted . hahas
things get complicated.
life becum LIEs
promise are POISON
it's hard for me to believe
wad pp sae ; except FRENs
other den FRENs .
i'm sealing myself awae
from e hurt i used habb.
i don believe inLUBB.
getting in lurbb is easy ;
letting go is nort an easy
thing .
therefore ; ii shall lock my
feeling . until i found someone
i really lurbb n holding e key
to my heart . surely nort at
this age of mine .
sicken class ; tuupiid class.
berri shity lo. idiotic siaa.
mr.low so good still no respect
him. shoot him dao like no
need money like dat.
two comp can use liao.
woohoos. X) happy.
ii donnoe. ii read my horoscope;
everything matched .
ii don even understand about myself.
- pathetic -.
omgg !! #$%*%&^#
habbin running nose . ki siaao ler `..
berri hao siao lo .. wahahas.
me n lijun play e chicken dance wahhaa.s
den in canteen pp saw ; omgg so paiisehs.
but fun. wahahas X))
den after dat after school go northpoint
planinn buy xianng e present.
ii saw him ; at e hall . nth really
happen lahhs hahahas. ke fu liao .
anywae RUNNING NOSE berri xinn ku.
woos ! i'm normal . wees . i'm impress by my art piece . mukakaas. my art is bout e fairys n fairys . used 1dae to draw 5page . berri powerful , wahahas. comment test cuminn. gotta workhard ; at least do my berri best .e new uniform far far c nice. but whhn stand close kanna sai -_-''
i understand everything nw ler . wahahas ; cus i'm smart
i saw him in school . i habb no more heart beat fast , jus dat my heart beat slower n confuse whhn i saw him behide me . why ? i donno. jus dat my mood had changed .. n i kept seein e image of him. even nw .. this freak me . omgs.
we went tu smbpark . i forgot whhn . it's fun n fun X) i suggest take num . but i nvr ask wahahas. lols paiisehh ask wrong pp .. den sato / lijun they go take . . erms e red guy is quite cute bahh. but not my cup of tea . haas. got a couple berri guud seh . let me bring their dog go for a walk not scare i steal siaa . e dog named vincent hahas , at 1st i tot will bite pp , but it was CUTE . hahas. it lick me , so friendy sehh X)) take lots of pic wibb him . hahas. n habb fun playing wibb it hahas as well as habbin fun with my frens n ying.
e tyme pass . it's nort e same anymore. i wish i would heard eu . it's impossible. there's no returning bck e past . eu're e first guy i waited n waited. spend me 15months to get over eu. nw`s e 17thmonths . i noe i did it. cus e feeling izznt e same anymore . i cant understand whhy, if eu really don lurbb me anymore. whhy rmb ? i ccant get it . eu once told her eur feelings towards me is jus a normal fren nothing eles more . i can only TOTALLY gibb up on eu if eu ease e date,don let me saw it when eu habb no feelings towards me.
