todae .; i msgged dear .
i asked him habbe i irritated him?
he asked me why . i reply dat
cus me like everytyme msgg him
den me feel dat i'm irritatin him.
he told me dat he anything e if i feel
irritating . . he oso no choice .

i felt - omgg -
i oso nth to sae too.

slowly blahblahblah .
i ask him do he feel dat i'm noisy
whhn i msgg him ? he sae no , he's
happy to receive msgg but at e same
tyme he hurt cus he feel i'm wasting
sms oh him . jus 1 week can sms over
600 -.-

i told him dat i tot he c my msgg will
tired of it , n feel dat i'm noisy .
he told me dats nort true (:

haas ; he ask me how i feel for him nw.
i told him i'm afraid , i don wan our
relationship to end. and i don wan jus
be part of his memories . he sae he oso
don wan it to end n he oso scare (:

for this moment .
i nvr doubt e word he saes .
i felt relief , (:

hmmpth .
todae ; tuuppidd moron called
me without talkin / answering.
idiotic . morning call bout 1hur
like dat . somemore during lesson.
like dat enough ler .

more idiotic e is calling whn i'm
habbing my AFTERNOON NAP.
curse him man. i'm dreaming.

but ok lahh e call wake me up
den i saw deardear e msgg . lols
but still dulan cus i cant get bck slpp.
i tell korkor about it korkor pick up e
phone and shout e person , 2 tyme
e person nvr call ler LOLs lame lo.

after dat waited for dear e msgg .
he sae he going to eat ; waited n waited
till 9+ like dat he den msgg me agnn.
during waiting ; i think lots too.
am i annoying? lols cus keep msgg
him like dat . but after recieve his
msgg , i feel lighter . lol his sms can
sweep my thoughts awae (X donno is
guud or bad . waiting his msgg is xinku.

i scare me n him = how me n xiongyun.
haiis . stead fast break fast .
i scare i would take more tyme to heal
bck if me n him break . n is he real to me?

like wad i usually scare ;
totally fall for him ler , den notice
everything is jus a lies . and dat tyme ,
tears is going to be my buddy agnn .
i don dare to place my heart fully on him

i scare my heart would break into pieces.
it's nort going to be healed , i noe dat.

hmmphs.
been thinking lots of things.
is this all jus part of illuision ?
it seems nort to be . but yet ;
everything is too guud to be real.

i scare ; scare everything would
turn into another lies .

i don wan to think dat much.
but i simply cant . whenever
i'm alone , things would flash
in my mind over n over agnn .

i'm afraid dat i'm annoying to
him . i scare alot alot of thing

haiis -.-'' kaori did sae to me
think alot of these would affect .
i noe ; but .. . ....

todae actually meet dear
at 12.45 e . in e end i late,
cus before going out i bathe
den ii leave hus at bout 12.45
he waited me for bout 1omin.
-.-'' i've been sweating . .
e weather is too hot. hahas .
we went to toa pa yoh 1st.

he meet his fren . den bout 45min
like dat he n me go walk other place
he scare i berri sian -.-'' den we walk
walk . on e wae walk walk he hold me
hand hahas. den he buy drinks
share wibb me. hee^^)

after dat we walked bck to e shoppin
mall there . meet his fren agnn . talked
awhile den go take mrt to eunos. (:
he at cityhall yawn -.-'' i den from
cityhall yawn dao eunos -.-'' non-stop.

after we went to e spec shop;
and we went walkwalk agnn . hahas.
(: he play kof -.-'' e small machine
e lols haas , e wae he play still e same.

on e wae i bought an icecream . hahas
we share abit =p we talk talk awhile while
walkin . he sae he wonder if we're still
together after 3years tyme ..
deardear ; i hope we can zuo xiaa qu.

after taking e spec .
i and him at '' no ven da '' drop.
pass my paa spec .
me and him den went to causewae.
after dat at 7+ i told him i need to
go ler .-.-'' deardear ; paiisehh lehs
den he wibb his fren i go home (:

todae on e wae to school .
saw his msgg . he sae he on
e wae to khabit mrt. asked me
wanna meet mah ? i agreed (:
i told sato they all to go school
1st . cus i'll be late . ii and him talked
hahas. till e pleage thing over .
den chatted awhile till 7.50 like
dat . and i'm late for school .
but nvm for me wahahas.

todae after school meet deardear.
erm me lijun n sato . he n his frens.
we all walk together . on e wae ,
he held my hand. (X heartbeat FAST
hahas . after dat walk towards his jiejie
e hus there . we held hand all e wae .
wahahas . sato they take pic .
-.-'' but i'm happy . we play dao 4+ like
dat . den tyme up ler . pp going play
e room . den they wan to go play bball,
whhn reached sumwhere near e bball court.
ii told him i wan go home ler . nort feeling
well . he sae he acc me (X wahahas . he sae
he acc me till e khabit mrt station . in e end
he acc me till home . wahahas. (X

1oo% ENJOYING (X

wo0hoos.
BAOBEII . SARANG-HAE.
21august 2006 . not a dream ?
i'm happy . baobei ; i cant affort
to let eu go (X

i cant stop talking about him.
i too happy. happy happy happy.

stuppid . rabbit jump whhn i hug
him . idiot . my hand pua bi ,
omgg . berri pain . . 10 scatches .
omgg berri hot nw . eeee so pain.

ii msgged wibb him wahaha
i asked how's his dae ?he sae
happy cus he do work faster in
his grp . n becus he noe me.
WEEs i flew to e street lamp liao
hahas he asked me how i feel nw ?
i told him i'm happi n happi . more
den happy (X hahas.

sundae , going to 12 midnight .
i chatted wibb magic boi. haas.
(X though we habb nth much
to chatted abt ; we stil nvr hang
up e phone . haahs. we chatted
quite many ? hahas. chatted till
morning 5.35. den he went to slpp
he sae he wan some nap . hahas.
den he slpp dao 8+ .

srry . hai dao ni late for school -.-'

we sae hao wan meet e. hahas.
but in e end nvr . cus he tired mahs
hahas. mayb tmr ? hahas (X
me 1st tyme chat on phone till morning
n there's sch tmr . hahas. tired tired.
but worth it (X hahas. erm my maths
i get 74% !! one more percent to DESTINSTION
haas . omgg . my art get 76 (X WEEs .
I"M FLYING OVER E MOON agnn !
ahahas . n most important is i told him
how i feel like . i told him i don think
i'm crushing him . he reply me '' den ?''
i answered same wibb him how he feel lo.
he reply bck . he sae to me dat his heart
jump berri fast ahahas . he's CUTE (X

narhs . i'm tired. i need slpp.
tmr meeting him .
HOPE SO (X .

siann . wake up so early.
9.30am nw . LOLs donno
why leh ? ii nort enough
slpp . but wake liao cant
slpp bck . tried ler ..

so poor thing /
i tot todae would wake
up late. so set alarm ytd
i setted 12.10pm . ii tot
would overslept. BUT.
it turned to be OVER EARLY
wake up . gross ; saturdae
n sundae slpp less den 12hurs
nort enough for me e . sobb
somemore todae slpp for
9hurs niaa . --'' ))

did i think too much ?
crushing him ? i donno.
i don dare to face e
reality. --))

jus reached home . 7.30 like dat.
hees , i'm tired . mayb nort enough
slpp . or either ytd whole dae nvr
eat jus drink water . i dono why leh
jus don habb e appetite to eat. erm
at 5plus den eat . haas.

me n him meet at e khabit mrt e
last cabin . haas . . his wearing like
going to school hahas. diff from e
1st tyme seein him cus he style his
hair . erm ; we went to bugis e
bras plaza complex . he bought
2 comics ? iori e king of fighter
e . ii bought paint brush . (X wahahas.
he's magic still great . hahas ;
e coin e oso . wahahas . after walk finish
in bugis . we take shutter bus to city hall
den went to marina bay and went to
bishan . hahas , in e train he show me
hahahas (X e card berri nice PURPLE.
hahas. we went to bishan to c lee lian jie
at 4pm lijun them oso at there . hahas.
den after watching . me lijun shuting
went to eat . we went food court den don
feel like eating e food there we went to
kfc . lols full of pp. no seat . i sms him tell
him dat we at kfc ler nort at food court.

he den cum find us . wibb his frens (:
me n shuting bought donnoe wad thing
to eat . they eat liao stay awhile den leave
le . but in bishan , shop for kahhoe e
birthdae present . me him at e kfc
there sit . his frens stand n sit
hahas -.-'' . he like nvr delete e
msgg we msgged . hahas n
e msgg he sented. hahash . (X ii rmb
he play e kof berri funny . hhahas .. will
clap hand whhn he die . hahas. cute sehh
(X den he sent song to his phone
i sent to my phone . hahas. means we
exchange phone (: after dat we
wait dao 6pm like dat we went to e 1st
floor to c gu tian ler . (: he's so shuaii omgg
(X hahas tanned skin omg ! haas . after
dat c dao finish ler i wan go home ler
(: i go bck wibb lijun n shuting . den he
go china town wibb his 3friend (: i think he
is saw dat gort lijun n shuting pei me so he
den go china town wibb his frens (: den i sae
ok lo . he go wibb his friend i go wibb
lijun shuting

after dat me n shuting walk slowly n stopped
wait lijun . donno wad he n lijun talk about.
den donno leh hahas . we three walk to
e mrt , before dat we sae bubbye to
each other haas. when we walkin down
e stair i saw e train so we three walk faster.
just nice whhn e train leave .he called me
. he sae he wann show me sumthing.
but nvm ler cus i in e train ler . den hang e
phone ler . lijun ask me wadthing i told
her . she call bck him . hahas said meet
at ang mo kio e last cabin there. hahas.
e next two train i saw him . he sae come
to e end hahas . he take out paper rose
.. he sae actually he wan gibb me e
paper rose but e paper rose get torned
so he sae he wann burn it . whn he
lighted it , he paper get burned . berri
nice sehh . no ash e WEES . den he take
out something out frm his bagg or pocket.
a fake rose. hahas (: next tyme i take
a pic n post in out. hahas. he sae he actually
wan gib real e , but keep too long in bag
will die . so he gibb dat one , n he said something.

[ jia e ye bu chuo ,
ke yi ke yi forever keep zu ]

wahahas (X my heart melted =p but he doesnt
noe hahas . he sitted e train to chua chu
kang den take another train to meet
his frens . he's 1o1% SWEET hahas.
i sms him sae thans for e flower n e flower
burn berri nice . . n thans for e song too.
we den keep smsing .. till at night still
smsing. he ask me how's my
feeling nw ? i told him which one getting
e flower e or e dae wibb him . n i told
him e dae wibb him is great . fun
. enjoying even i'm abit of tired cus
i need to slpp more den 12hurs in
weekend den wont feel tired . hahas
but still enjoy my dae (:

he told me he produce e flower too slow.
cus this is his 1st tyme doing this
(X n he sae his heart jump
berri fast . n whhn gibbin me e flower
he should habb sae sumthing . .
* i think i noe * n he sae i should
noe . . after i ask him wan chat on
phone he sae ok . he used his
fren phone to call my hp . (: we
talked n talked . he seems to be
distracted by sumthing n i recieved
a msgg . i told he wait i go c msgg .
he sae'' ehh ehh ehh . * sumthing
like dat* u c e msgg ler mah ?
don angry leh '' haha guess wad
i saw ? he ask me for stead . . ahaahas .
i'm happy , FLYING OVER E MOON . (X

but.. i told him , i dui his impression is
deep n habb some kinnda of feeling
toward him . . n so on . i told him
i scare dat e feeling is crush.
n i don wan it to be jus a crush ,
and asked him gibb me s
umtyme to make it sure dat
dat's not a crush . i told him next
next thurs will tell him.
we at 1 am going 2 chatted in phone
. . chated alot alot of thing . . n
told him how i feel . .we chated for
3hurs45min like dat .. hahas (X
i'm happi . we at morning 5am
going 6 den slpp. hahas (; cus he
going out tmr . though
i'm tired ; i'm happy .

he habb no ex before . i habb 4 .
he believe in forever . i losted trustin forever.
if it's for him . i'm willing to believe
dat agnn. but i scare me n him wont last .
i cant take another blow of separation
agnn . i took a lot a lot of tyme to recover
from dat wound.

i told him dat i todae wake up berri early .
donnoe why leh . hahas , wake up at
8+ . . he told me he oso wake
up berri early wake at 7+ hahas.
he sae he scare wake up late so
set alarm at 11.50 ii setted at 12.15
hhahas (X me n his got similarity
part ; dat is slpp non-stop . hee(;


MY DAE IS SWEET n I'M FLYING
OVER E MOON.

i donthink i CRUSH HIM .
jus need tyme to let me c that
dat's nort a crush den i can place
my heart fully in him .

wo0hoos !
my maths (X
get 26/35,
74% or 76%
forgotted !!
argg , can get
27 e . but me
careless mistake
gross loss one
mark. e answer
is corrected .
but i putted it NEGATIVE
shit . how on can
i make it mistake.
ms.ling gibb
us an exam
paper. she told
us die die must
do n try . if
we cant even
handle this paper
it's hard for us
to pass our end of year.
i will gibbe it a try.(:


e magic boi,
heard from sato
alot bout him.
she n lijun tell me
if possible . try it
out wibb him . he's
a guud guy (:

[ dui diao xiong mao,
jie shou bai xiong ]

i habbe let xiongyun
go ler ; feelings
but jus cant totally
forget about him.
my heart ; there's a hole.
e scar is still there.

todae ; stay bck sch.
haas. till 1.40 . actually
go c movie. but due to
something . hahas .

sato's fren berri guud in
magic . wahahas. so cool.
more cool e is e SONG .
hahas nice leh e techno
OMG (X

[ don rush me ] ` i;m sorry !

todae ; my maths . wahahas
think is a pass (X tmr get it.
i pou bu ji dai (: went to tiong bah ru
to meet marmiie. and went to arhma
hus awhile. she rich liao . hahas.
ii oso rich ler . hees . i boughted
1pants . 1shoe . n forgot ler. hhahas.
habbing fun (X WEEs !

we bought duaka in e 1st place;
is becus of e XING XIAN GAN.
cus we habb nvr own a rabbit
before .

we need to be more responsible.
cus we bought a life ; rabbit .
nort becus it's a rabbit so we
jus adore it at e 1st place n
get sick of it whhn tyme passes


been thinking ; what if
he pass awae?
wad would my emotional be?
whenever i hug him ;
i owaes imagine what if
he stopped breathe n so on.

NAHs !! SHOO [x2 ] .
don wan think ler -.-''
HE IS MY ADORE X)

TODAE PE X)
I FORGOT BRING .
GROSS. actually bring e
but c e rabbit hungry . i
feed HIM .

MY RABBIT ITS A
HIM ; A BOII (X

den i place my shirt on e
hanging shirt there.
den leave hus WITHOUT
e SHIRT ! GROSS .

but still play PE without
e SHIRT . WE PLAY NETBALL
wahahas ! LURBB IT WHHN IT
GOAL X) WEEs !!

I GET STICKY n SMELLY n
TIRED ! WEEs !! my MATHS
get 16/2o X) ITS A PASS X)
but ii re take after school .
jus wannt to try it (X hees.

SARANG-HAE .
I LURBBE EU <33

been watching e SHOW.
OH MAN . AII SII NII LER (X

SO NICE .
I'M CRAZIIE .

WATCHING e SHOW
LEAD ME TO E TYPE
OF LURBBE II WANNTED.
but that's e type i wont
haabe in life .

i'm nort naive anymore.
is it guud or bad ?
there's no answer.

BUT STILL WILL CONTINUE
WATCHING E SHOW X)
nw waiting to visit arhma
and gibb money to me (:
haas. she tio 4D. hees.
after dat , gonna go rent e
show n BURN IT (X WEEs !!

E TRUTH is . I'M SICK OF U ;
i noe eu habb eur reason.
but i cant stand e attitude of eurs
i'm NORT PUPPET .

[ a ng el lost ] [ devi l r epla ce d ___ ]

been watchin youtube. haa.
watch e show . ho0os !
[ craziie ] ALL OVER YOU.
haas. e show is 1o1% NICE.
haas . it's a show ; but so real.
reflected e real world. but
e real world is more cruel .


my heart is torn pieces
by pieces . it's nort healing;

wo0oS !!
[ ZHUI HOU ZI WU ]
SO NICE ! mans , it's great!
wees . gonna buy e disc X)
or borrow n burn it WEES
e story is sad T.T almost cry.

e most touchin korean would
be stairwae tu heaven .
almost every episode cry . haa.s
nw my 2nd favourite korean
show is ZHUI HOU ZI WO
wee wee X)

todae study till 1o3o. so early.

everythings seems new to me .
walking into a life dat habb changed.
meeting people dat they nort used
be ; include me . i've change.
ii start to sealing up myself. nort
really enjoy myself . life full wibb
hated, evil thoughts .

e devil is taking over me .
i don wan . i'm sick of
this freaking world . everywords
i heard tured into lies .
each sentence turned into
knife , stab my heart .

there's no friends i can really
place my trust on. just them ;
less den my five finger . i trust
them . but i nvr really reveal
my problems towards them.
cus i'm afraid to be annoyed.
i noe i wont ; cus it's them i'm
pouring to, but i jus couldnt .

hurting a friend no need to
speak . jus action will do ;

todae PE . wo0hs .
quite funn ? play
captain ball wibb 3e3.
haas. we habb e lowest
score. but FUN weees !!!

I'M SMELLY !
SMELLY
SMELLY
SMELLY

mr.low nvr cum for
many daes . ahaa.s
free lesson many dae.
mondae maths test.
XIN LI PA PA.
but habbe half half
confident . haas.
i don dare to place
so high expectation
on myself. i scare e
disappointment is
heavier . ahas.

this term ;
i found dae ain
they all are nice (:
esp her . haas .
nort like how i
c them in e 1st place
hees . (:

waolao !
LAOPO sent me
e stupid video .
anti HIM !.
berri wad lehs .
kanaa saii !!

todae went SHOPPING.
wooho0s ! so fun Xp .
meet marmiie at smb mrt.
den went to causewae point.
we wen there . shopshop
she buy bag n AHEM AHEM.
ii bought a pant n a shirt .
i nvr c da price omgg .
two thing cost $112. ??
damn EXPENSIVE . haa.
for me looks CUTE wahahs.
den me n marmiie went
eating . haas ; after went home ?
hahas . going 5 reached home.
quite tired . but worth it.
hahas . actually heart oso pain.
hahas e thing cost so much.
hahas . marmie ask me
happy ? ii smile . hahas
she sae 1oo + e smile
berri expensive . wahahas.


todae late for sch.
they wait for me.
omgg . nort worth it.
but happy ? hahas X)
erm sit at detension room
till recess . missed maths
lesson . omgg lucky no
learn new things hahas.
ii so happy ! my art get
7o marks . woos ! i wan
get 75 marks A1 ,.
so later gonna go draw
another piece . X)
muhahas .

DUAKA .
e BIG FOOT;
waahahas . she`s
adorable ! she`s ADDITATED
to my TITBITs . my FOOD !
muhahahs .